Meditations

A Poem

On this Thanksgiving I wanted to post a poem I wrote a while back after meditating. Life is a journey, and it is filled with ups and downs, and despite knowing there will be bouts of depression ahead, I am thankful that I am not in the same place emotionally or spiritually that I used to be when I wrote this poem.

-Happy Thanksgiving

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I am a still mountain

Rising stoically through the fog

Of my own introspection.

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I can hear familiar voices

Doubt, resentment…

Self-hatred.

Well known characters that

Reside inside my head

And keep me company

When the loneliness

Is too much.

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Then a thought arrives:

What an unlikeable person

I must be, to wallow here

In self pity and despair

With no real kindred company

That I could trust

To refer to me

In the same way.

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Of my own doing no less,

Through travel and

Through laziness I have

Let the lines fall dead.

I have ceased contact for no

Other reason than absent minded

Forgetfulness. The very same

People I see fondly in my memories

Are too far for me

To reach out and

Talk to.

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Do it before you lose another one.

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That’s what the inner monologue

Mentions from time to time.

Why have time if not to

Spend it with those you love?

And yet…

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I am adrift on the ocean of

My own failures. An inability

In thirty three long years,

To tame the beast of

Impulsivity and secure

Myself some modicum

Of value.

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How can I look in the

Mirror and complain when

I find myself to blame

Time and time

Again. Lost

In a spin cycle of sad

Repeated mistakes and this

Overbearing sense

Of disappointment.

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All you can do in the face

Of an unrelenting chain of

Terrible choices is

Choose to take another chance

And keep playing

This shitty game.

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If you enjoyed that, here are some more poems by Sincerely Seb:

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